Quiting..

Today, I am quiting the job I have had for the past couple of months at the church nursery.

It took me 3 weeks to finally decide this is the right thing to do.  I am sad, not wanting to go to church because it stresses me out so much.

Church should never be a place of stress, but it really has been stressful.

I MISS God.

I miss learning about God.  I need to be back in Sunday school and in "Big Church".  I need my daughter to want to go to church on Sunday Mornings.  She hasn't wanted to, and last Sunday I let her stay home.  Today she wanted to go and then had a really horrible morning because I wasn't with her in "Big Church".  It broke my heart.  I wanted so much to hold her hand and sit with her.  I wasn't going to do that because I told her she had to go to service.  She just didn't want to sit alone.  She didn't realize there where people she could sit with.  I walked her in to our friends and had her sit with them.  She went in crying and came out with smiles.  She even told me about the service today and one of the jokes the pastor told.  She really enjoyed it.

I hope that she understands one day why I was very adamant about her going to "Big Church".  I want her to be a strong Christian woman and the only way she will become that is by me teaching her what should be important to her.


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Trust in God

Trust In God

There is so much that we don’t understand;
So wisely let us leave it in God’s Hand,
The One who knows the ending from the start
And what resides in each and every heart.


God can take that which seems so very bad
And make it be in time with goodness clad;
That which was bad had only seemed that way,
And what we thought was night brought on the day.


So never let a child of God despair,
But simply trust and leave it in His care;
God sees it all, eternal in its scope;
So trust in Him and live each day in hope. 
~ Anonymous ~

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Casting my Cares

What do you do when things just never seem to go right?

I know I seem to fret a lot about things. I tend to be a natural worrier. I worry even when there is nothing to worry about.

We started the process a few months ago to try to have a baby. I want this so much.  I have prayed about it and prayed about it for years.  Parts of my prayers have been answered; it seems, but not the actual getting pregnant part.  It is frustrating.  I want to scream and holler. 

I need to take a step back and go if this is in God’s plan then it will happen.  I know that sometimes we don’t want to wait for God.  But we have to wait for him.  It is his call.  God answers prayers and I will trust him with his plan.  So for now I am casting my cares to the Lord.  I will wait for him to bless me with another baby.

 

Casting all your care upon Him, because He cares about you. (1 Peter 5:7)

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You cant get Oranges from a Lemon Tree

Today, my pastor was preaching in Galatians.  It got me thinking, do I sow goodness in my family and my friends.

I tend to feel that I do. I sure hope that I show it through my actions. 

I have always shown goodness to others even when they do not show it to me. 

I teach my daughter that you have to treat everyone with kindness, no matter how mean they might be to her, if she shows her the kindness she wants to see then it will shine through and in the end they will treat you the same. 

My pastor said that if you sow something like turnips then you will get turnips in the end. You can’t expect to get squash if you planted turnips.  To me he was saying if you plant in others what you want in return then you will get that in return. 

In the end if you plant a Lemon tree don’t expect to get oranges because it isn’t going to happen. 

Galatians 7-10: ⁷Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. ⁸The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. ⁹Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. ¹⁰Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers.

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I wanted to share this post with iFellowship so I linked it for today.
 

Thinking...

Thinking about things in my life sometimes will make me step back and 
re-evaluate what is going on and why. I often find myself asking God if I can handle this.  Is this the right step we should be going in? Am I doing the right thing? Why am I worrying about this?  The word 'this' is my hypothetical problem. But in a way it really isn't hypothetical at all.  

I am worried about Thursday. I go in to the doctor for my yearly appointment and I am scared that they are going to tell me I can't have another child.  I worry that they are going to say things like your to old or your to over weight.  I know some of those answers are not something I really want to hear right now.  I know in my heart that I want another child.  I feel that if it wasn't in God's plan for us to have another child my husband's vasectomy would still be good. But it isn't. So now it is all on my body and up to God for us to have another child.  I keep telling myself that is up to God, but deep down I do not want to give up that control.  I want to be the one that says this is what is going to happen.  I don't care what anyone else has to say.  I know that I can not. I do not have that control, it is up to the Lord!. 

Sunday night we where given a new song in choir practice, that I wanted to share.  I know that it isn't a brand new song but I had never heard it before until Sunday night.  The song is called "My Life is in Your Hands". It is written by Kirk Franklin.  This song has really made some sense to me since Sunday. 

"I know that I can make it
I know that I can stand
No matter what may come my way
My life is in your hands"

God Watches over us all....

Today I thought was going to be a normal payday Thursday. 

God had something else planned.

I did my normal morning routine, Shower, get dressed, brush teeth and we all headed out the door. 

I took Sephy to the Doctor.  It was a fast appointment. Just renewing her meds and she did a once over on her and said she looked like she was getting taller.  Got our Rx and left. 

Stopped by the Library, picked up 8 new books for Sephy to read and 1 for me (that was for her but I read the first chapter and said nope I ain't letting her read this.)

I take Persephone to school and then head to the Pharmacy.  Pay $30 bucks for her Rx.  

Head home for a moment to pick up my Giveaway Necklaces so that I can mail them. 

Head to the post office.  

I drive past the post office, thinking to myself.  Yeah there are parking spots in the front, so I turn around and I am sitting at the stop sign to turn.  All of a Sudden all the parking spaces where full but ONE.  That one was going to be mine.  So I wait and wait for all the cars to go by so that I can turn.  A red car is slowing down and I am like NO NO NO that is my parking spot.  (this is all in my head mind you)  So this red car goes to Park. 

I am sitting there watching her.  She pulls in and goes to stop. 

BUT 

Instead she Plows into the side of the POST OFFICE.  

I was like OMG.  Lord please let her be okay.  Please don't let her be bleeding I do not want to get blood on my new shirt.  ( I know selfish of me, but really I wouldn't have cared I can always buy new clothes) 

Finally I can cross the street.  Guess What I got the parking spot I was going for.  

I flew out of my van.  My cell phone was already in my hand as I walked really fast to her, because another man was standing there talking to her already.  I called 911 told the lady.  Hi my name is Cherees R------- I am at the Central Post office at the end of Magnolia and a Lady just ran into the post office.  ( I know that she is thinking on the other end, so everyone is running into the post office today. because not until after that did It dawn on me today is tax day.)  So I told the dispatcher that I need an ambulance.  She said okay one is on the way.  

I talked to the lady.  I said Hi My name is Cherees.  What is your name.  She said Gloria.  I was like nice to meet you.  Are you hurting anywhere.  She said yes my knees.  I told her I don't want you to move until the EMTs get here because it isnt safe.  I asked her if there was anyone she wanted me to call because if they don't take you to the ER you are going to need a ride.  I called someone for her.  I stayed and just kept her talking until the EMT got there.  

I had to even help the EMTs with the car door because it kept shutting on them.  

I had to stay there until they got her in the ambulance and the car onto the wrecker, because of that oh so cherished parking space.  

Gloria is okay, they did take her to the ER just to make sure but she was talking and was just in pain.  Her pretty Red car is all crushed. 

My nerves are still a little shaken because of the what if's.   

 I am thankful that Gloria is okay.  

I am thankful that I was there to help and talk to her.  

I am thankful that God was watching over her and that she hit the side of the building instead of the railing that would have made the nose of her car fall into it and it could have been worse. 

I am thankful that God made me wait for that cherished parking spot. 

But, I never did go into the Post Office today because after that I just wanted to leave that area and spend time with my husband.  

I pray that Gloria is okay and that God is still watching over her and that she is safe at home. 

The rest of my day was very uneventful compared to my morning. 

Had lunch with hubby. 

Picked up Sephy from school. 

Went to the grocery store. 

Went home. 

Ate Dinner. 

Blogged about my morning.